Get Away

While my mind consented to my heart's request to accept an offer at a University away from home awhile go, I know that my heart only gave its go ahead yesterday. This was by far the hardest decision I've had to make in my life but one that I believe is not only necessary but the right one. I know in wake of my decision I've deeply left some loved ones speechless, wanting me beside them but at the same time understanding my need for autonomy and trust. I'm left so completely sad everytime I broach the subject of university with my mother because I understand that she'd rather me stay home with the family and study in Toronto, she wants her only baby as close as to her. Coming to this conclusion was an exercise in thought, I went through all the pros and cons and in the end I ended up with a list proportionally balanced - no disparities. That came as a shock as I thought that once I got down to writing out everything the benefits of Western would outweigh those of UOFT. However, there was a big difference, one that's rather personal and only spoken to the people that truly understand me - my bestfriend as well as cousin - Neusa. This last year and past year has been scarring for me, perpetual disappointments and blows beyond my scope of comprehension. It's simple enough, I need to get away.